THE FIX
Ozzy (Sick Boy) roaddawgz.org, May 24, 2004
The mixing and the fixing are the sketchiest parts of his life.

MOVIN' DOWNTOWN
Gail Goynes roaddawgz.org, Apr 07, 2004
Because of all of this bull**** I have been threatened to have the **** get kicked out of me, and be cut of from the so-called “Street Family”. I am so sick of all of these stupid threats, and losing old friends over ten dollars or a little bit of dope. I don’t have very many friends anymore because of drugs. Crack kills, and heroin can destroy a perfectly good person.

10/100
Pudd roaddawgz.org, Mar 24, 2004
Pudd said he gave his saga this title because it represents such an infintesimal portion of what he's done with his life. He thought that by now he'd be settled down somewhere with a good job and family or something.....

TURNING IT OVER
Sphinx roaddawgz.org, Sep 19, 2003
An hour later, everyone was fixing. Delilah, as usual, was having a desperate battle between her overwhelming desire to keep getting high and the resistance put up by her overworked veins. Darby had no problem hitting a vein, and had plenty of dope. He kept getting high, she kept struggling, and the party wound on like this throughout the night. His needles began to commingle with hers. She eventually noticed, was a bit disturbed, but was so fully enveloped by her own self-destruction that she either did not care or was just too obliterated to think.

I AM AN ADDICT
Gail Goynes roaddawgz.org, Sep 10, 2003
I keep asking myself why am I an addict? Is it just depression, self destruction, and self hate? If I think too hard the whole world gets me down.

THURSDAY
Flee DaSysem roaddawgz.org, Sep 09, 2003
The last thing he said to me was, "Man, Flee. I think Haight Street is the gate to Hell, man. Be careful. Did you here me, man? I said, 'BE FUCKIN' CAREFUL, MAN!!!" Strung out? Never again! And, the next person who offers me a loaded rig is gettin' knocked in the fuckin' teeth!

SOBER
The General roaddawgz.org, Jun 24, 2003
Used to be I couldn’t function without booze in my system. Motor functions, shakes, loss of breath. Used to be that I couldn’t eat unless I had some of that gasoline cuz of the shakes.

STRUGGLING THROUGH DRUG ADDICTIONS
Gail Goynes roaddawgz.org, Jun 02, 2003
Right now I am struggling with another drug addiction that I am trying to beat. I am currently addicted to heroin, something that I used to despise. I ended up getting sucked into it just because I was in love with some stupid guy, who has been a junkie for almost ten years.

WHO'S DRIVING YOUR BUS?
Monique Horton roaddawgz.org, Feb 10, 2003
One phrase that I heard during my brief stint in drug rehabilitation was, "Who's driving your bus?" It was a catchy attempt to shock patients into the realization that, as addicts, we were being led and driven by motives not born of ourselves. In denial, I self-righteously concluded that unlike the unfortunate morons surrounding me, I was at the helm of my own ship, thanks. During the two years hence, I've had the naiveté, (painfully) stripped away by the constant friction with reality

FACING THE FAMILY - A MOMENT OF TRUTH
Brett Snyder roaddawgz.org, Feb 10, 2003
The phone rings. Two more rings and he picks up. My stepdad, wondering why I'm calling collect at 2 am, accepts the call. He grumpily moans, "I'll get your mom...hold on."

"No," I say, "I don't think she can handle this. I've been arrested."

"What?" he replies, "Oh, God...for what ?"

WITH OR WITHOUT HEROIN
WHAT IF I DON'T EVER FEEL FREE?
Kari Guilinger roaddawgz.org, Feb 10, 2003
Thinking about freedom takes me back to old journal entries I've written in the past few months, as things have gotten really bad. Never before have I felt so trapped, so lost with no hope of escaping this life or even having the strength to make things better for myself.

FREEDOM IN JAIL
Dustin roaddawgz.org, Feb 10, 2003
I believe that personal freedom exists in the same things that personal prisons exist in. There is a lot of freedom through drug use, like freedom from reality. But you can also be a slave to drug addiction. I think that how free you are depends on how free you perceive yourself to be.